So I am not going to lie, I have had a few setbacks. I hurt myself (so I had to pull back on the exercising & have not been able to get into the same momentum I had). Work has been crazy (no time to count points & I am making really bad choices at time...mostly because of lack of planning). All in all I seem to be doing something right...I take the stairs whenever possible, walk wherever I can & when my head is on straight I behave like an angel. Funny thing is....it's WORKING!!!!
I lost 15 pounds so far, not FANTASTIC but damn that's 15 POUNDS LESS THAN I WAS!!!! Things are also fitting differently & people...men especially are noticing! Yep it seems as though they are coming out of the woodwork, paying me compliments...asking me out! Funny thing is also happening...women are noticing too. I seem to have fallen into their radar as well....sorry ladies but I don't bat for that team (never did & probably never will) Frankly speaking besides the obvious appendage that men have and women don't (and I happen to be fond of)...there is something about broad shoulders that no woman could ever have (no matter how much they pump up)...I just love men! Anyway, sorry to digress.....
Maybe it's my new attitude? Or the fact that I have fallen in love? It seems to appeal to people and make them drawn to me. Yes it is true...I am madly in love & it radiates from my pores. So who is this special someone who makes my heart beat a little faster and puts a pep to my step......it's ME!
It's taken 40+ years but finally I can say that I love myself & who I've become. To hell with those who have hurt me or tried to bring me down. To hell to those who don't value me the way I deserve to be valued...and guess what.....all of my trials and tribulations have only made me STRONGER!
It's been a long time coming but it's finally ALL ABOUT ME so there you have it!
Monday, November 21, 2011
Sunday, October 30, 2011
In Continuation
Hello again! These last couple of weeks have been absolutely insane...at work....at home...in general.
Thankfully, Ryan's last game will be on Friday so no more Fall Baseball. As much as he enjoys to play the sport & I like watching him play....every now and again I get exhausted from being Mommy Chauffeur.
What's really killing my mojo and draining me of what little energy I have left is work. I am not saying I hate my job or the company I work for or anything of the sort. It's just the industry I am in. It's finance, it's dealing with people's money, with their nest egg, with their fears...it's exhausting! Day in and day out I am talking people off ledges, comforting their fears while I see my own 401K tank & the only people who call me on a daily basis are creditors. It's stressful. Listen the economy sucks, you don't need me to tell you that. Frankly, I am not thrilled over this whole Occupy Wall Street movement because since it began my workload has doubled (not complaining, I am just human and could do only so much). I come home from work & all I want to do is collapse on the couch & my brain is absolute mush. Just the other day I stopped at my local supermarket after working a 10 1/2 hour day so that I could pick up a few things for dinner. I was so tired I left my phone there and wasn't until I got home that realized it so I had to go back out to retrieve it. The very next day I worked a 10 hour day and realized when I got to my car that I had left my keys on my desk so I had to go all the way back to get them. I actually never ate dinner on either of these days because I was too tired and just went to bed. Funny thing is, these are days I did not have Ryan, on those days I can't work late but my evenings are just as exhausting & most nights the kid eats and so does the dog...I only have the energy to nibble on something.
The long and the short of all this is...I have not had the energy to write about my daily dieting rituals but that does not mean I am not still giving it an effort. In all honesty, I have not worked out in about two weeks (I hurt my leg and then when it started to heal went on two very long walks, which made me sore for days). I am watching what I eat, and trying to make sensible choices (I keep forgetting to track my points sometimes). The whole eat breakfast like a king and have dinner like a pauper theory seems to be working though. I have a big breakfast and it seems to sustain me through the day and into the evening, In summary since I started my journey I lost 10 pounds. Perhaps it could have been more if I stayed more consistent, but hey the pounds did not add up overnight and they won't come off overnight either....baby steps! But I just have to keep on going.....
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Thankfully, Ryan's last game will be on Friday so no more Fall Baseball. As much as he enjoys to play the sport & I like watching him play....every now and again I get exhausted from being Mommy Chauffeur.
What's really killing my mojo and draining me of what little energy I have left is work. I am not saying I hate my job or the company I work for or anything of the sort. It's just the industry I am in. It's finance, it's dealing with people's money, with their nest egg, with their fears...it's exhausting! Day in and day out I am talking people off ledges, comforting their fears while I see my own 401K tank & the only people who call me on a daily basis are creditors. It's stressful. Listen the economy sucks, you don't need me to tell you that. Frankly, I am not thrilled over this whole Occupy Wall Street movement because since it began my workload has doubled (not complaining, I am just human and could do only so much). I come home from work & all I want to do is collapse on the couch & my brain is absolute mush. Just the other day I stopped at my local supermarket after working a 10 1/2 hour day so that I could pick up a few things for dinner. I was so tired I left my phone there and wasn't until I got home that realized it so I had to go back out to retrieve it. The very next day I worked a 10 hour day and realized when I got to my car that I had left my keys on my desk so I had to go all the way back to get them. I actually never ate dinner on either of these days because I was too tired and just went to bed. Funny thing is, these are days I did not have Ryan, on those days I can't work late but my evenings are just as exhausting & most nights the kid eats and so does the dog...I only have the energy to nibble on something.
The long and the short of all this is...I have not had the energy to write about my daily dieting rituals but that does not mean I am not still giving it an effort. In all honesty, I have not worked out in about two weeks (I hurt my leg and then when it started to heal went on two very long walks, which made me sore for days). I am watching what I eat, and trying to make sensible choices (I keep forgetting to track my points sometimes). The whole eat breakfast like a king and have dinner like a pauper theory seems to be working though. I have a big breakfast and it seems to sustain me through the day and into the evening, In summary since I started my journey I lost 10 pounds. Perhaps it could have been more if I stayed more consistent, but hey the pounds did not add up overnight and they won't come off overnight either....baby steps! But I just have to keep on going.....
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Monday, October 17, 2011
Days Twenty-Five through Twenty-Nine: Balls and Other Stuff
Thursday - I attended the North Bergen Mayor's Ball. What a party! There was a bountiful buffet complete with the biggest shrimp I had ever seen in my life, food up the whazoo, drinks a plenty and desserts to die for. Was I good? <Insert loud laughter> Are you kidding me? Of course, I was not good...but I know if I wasn't on this little kick I am on I could have been a lot worse.
Friday - It took me over an hour to get home from work. These things rattle me & hence stress me out...enough said.
Saturday - I had to Proctor in the morning so I was up and about at a ridiculously early hour (6AM). Afterwards I went to the Endodontist & started a root canal. It's going to cost me $925 & the way they work is I pay them and then they bill my Insurance Company (memories of Celebrity all over again). Once they receive the payment from the Insurance Company I will get reimbursed for the amount the Insurance Company paid. Really? $925 right before Christmas, when I am already behind on the majority of my bills...I need this like a hole in the head. Hence more stress! BTW - Stress = Make Poor Food Choices (at least I am aware of this and try to not go too overboard).
Sunday - My MBF (male best friend) came over to flip Ryan's mattress. He has been complaining about his mattress being uncomfortable for months and has been sleeping in my bed but since I am BROKE (see above) I decided it would be best to try to buy myself some time by flipping the thing over and buying Memory Foam to line it with. This is not a job that I can do myself since Ryan has a bunk bed, so my MBF came to the rescue & we got the job done (BTW - Ryan is in his room & LOVES his "new" mattress). Score!
Monday - I woke up feeling as though a Mack Truck had run me over. Never made it to work, so those of you who know me know this is serious. I spent most of the day sleeping or in the bathroom. I did manage to keep my promise to Ryan & went to Party City to get him his Halloween Costume and then came home & let him carve his pumpkin. He did the majority of the work himself, while I lay on the couch praying the pain in my gut would just go away.
In summary, this last week was one of the most chaotic ones I have had in quite sometime. I am a little disappointed in myself because I barely made time to exercise and made some pretty awful food choices. Bad Judy!!!!
However, right now I just can't wait to recoup from the stomach bug that is ailing me at the moment so that I can get back to business, because enough is enough!
Friday - It took me over an hour to get home from work. These things rattle me & hence stress me out...enough said.
Saturday - I had to Proctor in the morning so I was up and about at a ridiculously early hour (6AM). Afterwards I went to the Endodontist & started a root canal. It's going to cost me $925 & the way they work is I pay them and then they bill my Insurance Company (memories of Celebrity all over again). Once they receive the payment from the Insurance Company I will get reimbursed for the amount the Insurance Company paid. Really? $925 right before Christmas, when I am already behind on the majority of my bills...I need this like a hole in the head. Hence more stress! BTW - Stress = Make Poor Food Choices (at least I am aware of this and try to not go too overboard).
Sunday - My MBF (male best friend) came over to flip Ryan's mattress. He has been complaining about his mattress being uncomfortable for months and has been sleeping in my bed but since I am BROKE (see above) I decided it would be best to try to buy myself some time by flipping the thing over and buying Memory Foam to line it with. This is not a job that I can do myself since Ryan has a bunk bed, so my MBF came to the rescue & we got the job done (BTW - Ryan is in his room & LOVES his "new" mattress). Score!
Monday - I woke up feeling as though a Mack Truck had run me over. Never made it to work, so those of you who know me know this is serious. I spent most of the day sleeping or in the bathroom. I did manage to keep my promise to Ryan & went to Party City to get him his Halloween Costume and then came home & let him carve his pumpkin. He did the majority of the work himself, while I lay on the couch praying the pain in my gut would just go away.
In summary, this last week was one of the most chaotic ones I have had in quite sometime. I am a little disappointed in myself because I barely made time to exercise and made some pretty awful food choices. Bad Judy!!!!
However, right now I just can't wait to recoup from the stomach bug that is ailing me at the moment so that I can get back to business, because enough is enough!
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Day Twenty-Four: Happy Hump Day
So I'm a day late and a dollar short. What else is new. I'm still not completely over the hump but putting all things into consideration I was not as bad as I could have been. So I had a bagel for breakfast and munched on some garlic breadsticks all day. I also had a chocolate bar & a Snackwells bar (only healthy thing I ate all day). For dinner I had Wendy's chili and a baked potato.
I was not kidding when I said that when my "friend" is in for a visit, not only does she completely wipe me out as of late (I was in bed by 10:30....which is unheard of for me) but I crave the strangest things. Trust me I know I shouldn't eat this way....I'm not stupid but when my "friend" is in town, I cave....for the sake of my own sanity. Oh yeah & work has been CRAZY lately, not that I am complaining. I am glad to have a job & I like what I do these days but all week I have been leaving there feeling like mush, too much to do and not enough time to do it.
Still not exercising, I feel as though I am not resting at night & wake up exhausted. Last night to add insult to my already aching leg (I think I may need to see a doctor since my left leg is still feeling sore after almost a WEEK) I got a Charly Horse in the middle of the night, which is still throbbing and making my leg feel worse.
In summary I guess you can say I at least made a "decent" choice at Wendy's for dinner. That's progress. I just have to keep reminding myself....baby steps, baby steps.......
I was not kidding when I said that when my "friend" is in for a visit, not only does she completely wipe me out as of late (I was in bed by 10:30....which is unheard of for me) but I crave the strangest things. Trust me I know I shouldn't eat this way....I'm not stupid but when my "friend" is in town, I cave....for the sake of my own sanity. Oh yeah & work has been CRAZY lately, not that I am complaining. I am glad to have a job & I like what I do these days but all week I have been leaving there feeling like mush, too much to do and not enough time to do it.
Still not exercising, I feel as though I am not resting at night & wake up exhausted. Last night to add insult to my already aching leg (I think I may need to see a doctor since my left leg is still feeling sore after almost a WEEK) I got a Charly Horse in the middle of the night, which is still throbbing and making my leg feel worse.
In summary I guess you can say I at least made a "decent" choice at Wendy's for dinner. That's progress. I just have to keep reminding myself....baby steps, baby steps.......
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Day Twenty-Three: Crow
Maybe if I was forced to eat crow unless I stick to my diet, this would work! Well I am kinda eating crow right about now. I honestly don't know what's wrong with me? The day starts off good (not perfect, Ryan asked for spaghetti o's for lunch & a little bit did not fit in the Thermos....you know the rest). From there I get frazzled (my computer at work knocked me out of the server, so my afternoon was shot!) and I lose my motivation. WTF? I did have lots and lots of fruit today, hoping it would quench the bottomless pit....it only made me go to the bathroom 20 thousand times! So in a way, I guess there is a method to my madness.
As an aside, what is it with electronics conspiring against me lately...I know you are all in cahoots...KNOCK IT OFF!!!
I am also not feeling 100% & my exercise room has been taken over by a drying rack (Ryan has a game tomorrow & I had to wash his uniform but was afraid to leave the dryer on all night).
So in summary, I already know this is going to be a challenging week. Too much to do but I am determined that even on not so perfect days I will do my best to at least make a conscious effort at keeping to the plan.
Slow and steady, right? Hey on a good note I am beginning to see things are getting looser on me. Too bad it's my watch, lol. Geesh, you know not for nothing but my wrists were not in such a dire need to get trim. Perhaps we can work on my big fat ASS, now that's more like it!
As an aside, what is it with electronics conspiring against me lately...I know you are all in cahoots...KNOCK IT OFF!!!
I am also not feeling 100% & my exercise room has been taken over by a drying rack (Ryan has a game tomorrow & I had to wash his uniform but was afraid to leave the dryer on all night).
So in summary, I already know this is going to be a challenging week. Too much to do but I am determined that even on not so perfect days I will do my best to at least make a conscious effort at keeping to the plan.
Slow and steady, right? Hey on a good note I am beginning to see things are getting looser on me. Too bad it's my watch, lol. Geesh, you know not for nothing but my wrists were not in such a dire need to get trim. Perhaps we can work on my big fat ASS, now that's more like it!
Monday, October 10, 2011
Days Fifteen through Twenty-Two: 3rd Weekend Recap
You must be wondering where I have been? If I gave up on this whole transformation thing. The answer is No but I did have a terrible week.
My internet froze up, completely! To the point I had to buy some software called "System Mechanic" and when all else failed had to resort to reach out to the devil...my ex-husband (who happens to be a computer expert) for help. Needless to say I could not post anything since my only internet resources were from work (out of the question, too much to do) and my phone (are you kidding me?).
To add insult to injury (no pun intended) I seem to have pulled something in my leg so I could not do my weekly Zumba class and the slightest bit of movement (eg, walking) was painful so I basically could not do any cardio at all. I did work on my strength building and toning but I have to be honest with you, gave up on that on Thursday.
One could say I lost my mojo! Hey I am being honest!!!! I felt like the mole in whack a mole, every time I tried to pop my head out of the hole in the ground, something or someone was waiting on the other side with a huge mallet to knock me back down! It was extremely frustrating and disheartening to say the least. Oh and the icing to the cake is I am PMSing, so I am EXTRA sensitive to EVERYTHING!!!!
So considering my mood and in the sake for humanity (especially those I interact with on a daily basis) I decided to give myself a break. A break from the exercise and the point counting. I enjoyed a three day free for all (in moderation, since for some reason although I knew I was not doing what I should be doing somewhere my sub-conscious was saying...ah ah ah BAD JUDY!)
Sunday was the worst day! I went pumpkin picking with my son Ryan and our friends Jamie and Jake. I knew enough to have only ONE apple cider donut, but could not pass on the Fried Oreos (those things are EVIL) and my son insisted on Funnel Cake which of course I finished because I hate seeing food (even food that is bad for me) go to waste. For the record, it's impossible to stay on track when your kids are around. Well maybe not impossible but it sure seems like it, since I tend to act like a freakin' garbage disposal around him...finishing off what he leaves behind. That is one habit I am going to need to learn to nip in the butt if I ever plan on reaching my goal.
Overall, bad week (it happens) but not too much damage was done. I only gained 1.6 pounds so I am still ahead of the game. This week I have to focus and not let my monthly visitor hinder my progress by turning me into an eating machine. I just have to remind myself, it is not going to happen overnight....baby steps all the way and it's ok to screw up (I'M HUMAN). I just have to learn to get back on the wagon when I fall off and most importantly I need to be honest with myself, if this is EVER going to work!
My internet froze up, completely! To the point I had to buy some software called "System Mechanic" and when all else failed had to resort to reach out to the devil...my ex-husband (who happens to be a computer expert) for help. Needless to say I could not post anything since my only internet resources were from work (out of the question, too much to do) and my phone (are you kidding me?).
To add insult to injury (no pun intended) I seem to have pulled something in my leg so I could not do my weekly Zumba class and the slightest bit of movement (eg, walking) was painful so I basically could not do any cardio at all. I did work on my strength building and toning but I have to be honest with you, gave up on that on Thursday.
One could say I lost my mojo! Hey I am being honest!!!! I felt like the mole in whack a mole, every time I tried to pop my head out of the hole in the ground, something or someone was waiting on the other side with a huge mallet to knock me back down! It was extremely frustrating and disheartening to say the least. Oh and the icing to the cake is I am PMSing, so I am EXTRA sensitive to EVERYTHING!!!!
So considering my mood and in the sake for humanity (especially those I interact with on a daily basis) I decided to give myself a break. A break from the exercise and the point counting. I enjoyed a three day free for all (in moderation, since for some reason although I knew I was not doing what I should be doing somewhere my sub-conscious was saying...ah ah ah BAD JUDY!)
Sunday was the worst day! I went pumpkin picking with my son Ryan and our friends Jamie and Jake. I knew enough to have only ONE apple cider donut, but could not pass on the Fried Oreos (those things are EVIL) and my son insisted on Funnel Cake which of course I finished because I hate seeing food (even food that is bad for me) go to waste. For the record, it's impossible to stay on track when your kids are around. Well maybe not impossible but it sure seems like it, since I tend to act like a freakin' garbage disposal around him...finishing off what he leaves behind. That is one habit I am going to need to learn to nip in the butt if I ever plan on reaching my goal.
Overall, bad week (it happens) but not too much damage was done. I only gained 1.6 pounds so I am still ahead of the game. This week I have to focus and not let my monthly visitor hinder my progress by turning me into an eating machine. I just have to remind myself, it is not going to happen overnight....baby steps all the way and it's ok to screw up (I'M HUMAN). I just have to learn to get back on the wagon when I fall off and most importantly I need to be honest with myself, if this is EVER going to work!
Monday, October 3, 2011
Days Thirteen & Fourteen: 2nd Weekend Recap
In theory I was "good" this weekend. I exercised (twice a day) and I ate sensibly (I did not count points for three days). It just so happens that weekends are rough! Who knew?
I can honestly say I don't remember what I ate on Saturday but I know it wasn't much (I did not have the time). In the middle of my day I got a call from my kid asking me to pick him up in Queens....QUEENS? You see he was with his dad this weekend (or supposed to be) but since my ex & his wife had plans on Friday, instead of calling me to watch my son they drove him out to Queens to his step-mother's sister's house. My son was upset because he thought he was going to miss his 1st baseball practice (which happened to get cancelled anyhow). I called my ex & he said that he was stuck in the City and that his wife was out with some Buyers and that most likely they would not be able to pick up Ryan until Sunday morning. Having dealt with this nonsense NUMEROUS times, I decided to pick my kid up & bring him home. I also needed to run out and get him a Red shirt for the game since the Uniforms are not in yet (something else Dad was supposed to take care of).
I was not overly concerned about the practice I was more worried about missing the game on Sunday. Thank God I went with my gut since the step-mom (Diane) left early in the morning (took the only car they have) to go to a Trade Show & it was I who ended up taking Ryan to his game, because she did not get back in time. Against my better judgement I picked up his dad, so that he could go to the game (something that I am sure if the shoe was on the other foot he would not do for me). Now that I am recollecting my day I think I had a bagel thin for breakfast and the afternoon disruption took care of my mid-day appetite. I did get hungry but since my choices were Fast Food or an unhealthy snack of some sort (chocolate bar, chips etc)...lesson learned buy Healthy Snacks that I can carry around with me when the rug gets pulled out from under me! I made brown rice and grilled chicken with peppers & onions for dinner, so that ended my day on a high note....oh yeah & the YANKEES won!
On Sunday, I made breakfast (one scrambled egg & turkey sausage). I went to Ryan's game...they won! I then went home and got engrossed in laundry and my weekly chores (scrubbing down the bathroom, vacuum & general upkeep of my apt). I also took some time off to watch some Football....Giants won, Yankees didn't. For lunch I had some leftover chicken & rice from the night before and for some odd reason was not hungry at dinnertime, so I had a light snack. I did get my daily exercises in!
Overall, not too shabby for my 2nd week. As per the scale this morning I am down another 2.8 lbs. Total since the inception of my transformation....7.2 lbs!!!!! AWESOME!!!!! YAY ME!!!!
I can honestly say I don't remember what I ate on Saturday but I know it wasn't much (I did not have the time). In the middle of my day I got a call from my kid asking me to pick him up in Queens....QUEENS? You see he was with his dad this weekend (or supposed to be) but since my ex & his wife had plans on Friday, instead of calling me to watch my son they drove him out to Queens to his step-mother's sister's house. My son was upset because he thought he was going to miss his 1st baseball practice (which happened to get cancelled anyhow). I called my ex & he said that he was stuck in the City and that his wife was out with some Buyers and that most likely they would not be able to pick up Ryan until Sunday morning. Having dealt with this nonsense NUMEROUS times, I decided to pick my kid up & bring him home. I also needed to run out and get him a Red shirt for the game since the Uniforms are not in yet (something else Dad was supposed to take care of).
I was not overly concerned about the practice I was more worried about missing the game on Sunday. Thank God I went with my gut since the step-mom (Diane) left early in the morning (took the only car they have) to go to a Trade Show & it was I who ended up taking Ryan to his game, because she did not get back in time. Against my better judgement I picked up his dad, so that he could go to the game (something that I am sure if the shoe was on the other foot he would not do for me). Now that I am recollecting my day I think I had a bagel thin for breakfast and the afternoon disruption took care of my mid-day appetite. I did get hungry but since my choices were Fast Food or an unhealthy snack of some sort (chocolate bar, chips etc)...lesson learned buy Healthy Snacks that I can carry around with me when the rug gets pulled out from under me! I made brown rice and grilled chicken with peppers & onions for dinner, so that ended my day on a high note....oh yeah & the YANKEES won!
On Sunday, I made breakfast (one scrambled egg & turkey sausage). I went to Ryan's game...they won! I then went home and got engrossed in laundry and my weekly chores (scrubbing down the bathroom, vacuum & general upkeep of my apt). I also took some time off to watch some Football....Giants won, Yankees didn't. For lunch I had some leftover chicken & rice from the night before and for some odd reason was not hungry at dinnertime, so I had a light snack. I did get my daily exercises in!
Overall, not too shabby for my 2nd week. As per the scale this morning I am down another 2.8 lbs. Total since the inception of my transformation....7.2 lbs!!!!! AWESOME!!!!! YAY ME!!!!
Friday, September 30, 2011
Day Twelve: TGIF
I mean it! Thank God It's Friday because at least now I have two days to recuperate.
Today at work we had a luncheon at work for Hispanic Heritage Month or in other words....a dieters worst nightmare. I skipped breakfast (I know the most important meal of the day) and I indulged in the delicacies that my co-workers charmed us with. I also contributed by making Cuban Ham Spread but seems as though I made too much and had tons of it leftover. Damn It! I need to get rid of it PRONTO, hopefully my Cuban friend will take it off my hands tomorrow, if not this could be trouble. All of the food at the luncheon was delicious and afterwards I felt as though I was going to explode. It was a good feeling...I'll explain.
On Fridays, it's jeans day at work. I knew that as of Monday I had lost a few pounds so when I put on my jeans this morning & had a little trouble pulling up the zipper for an instance I thought, FML are you KIDDING ME??? I gained some back? Then I realized I was putting on a pair of jeans that just a few weeks ago I couldn't button, so pulling up the zipper was COMPLETELY out of the question and now although a little snug the button was buttoned and all I needed to do to get the zipper up was lay on my bed. YIPPEEE!!!! So you see there was a method to my madness, I did not need to eat a lot to get the OMG I will explode feeling so that means I COULD not overeat :)
Furthermore for some odd reason I was barely hungry at night so for dinner I ate what would normally be equivalent to a snack and that was after I did my nightly cardio. Cool beans! I honestly would not be surprised if today's indiscretion had minimal to no impact at all, I just have to be extra good on the weekend and I think I will be ok.
Today at work we had a luncheon at work for Hispanic Heritage Month or in other words....a dieters worst nightmare. I skipped breakfast (I know the most important meal of the day) and I indulged in the delicacies that my co-workers charmed us with. I also contributed by making Cuban Ham Spread but seems as though I made too much and had tons of it leftover. Damn It! I need to get rid of it PRONTO, hopefully my Cuban friend will take it off my hands tomorrow, if not this could be trouble. All of the food at the luncheon was delicious and afterwards I felt as though I was going to explode. It was a good feeling...I'll explain.
On Fridays, it's jeans day at work. I knew that as of Monday I had lost a few pounds so when I put on my jeans this morning & had a little trouble pulling up the zipper for an instance I thought, FML are you KIDDING ME??? I gained some back? Then I realized I was putting on a pair of jeans that just a few weeks ago I couldn't button, so pulling up the zipper was COMPLETELY out of the question and now although a little snug the button was buttoned and all I needed to do to get the zipper up was lay on my bed. YIPPEEE!!!! So you see there was a method to my madness, I did not need to eat a lot to get the OMG I will explode feeling so that means I COULD not overeat :)
Furthermore for some odd reason I was barely hungry at night so for dinner I ate what would normally be equivalent to a snack and that was after I did my nightly cardio. Cool beans! I honestly would not be surprised if today's indiscretion had minimal to no impact at all, I just have to be extra good on the weekend and I think I will be ok.
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Day Eleven: Bad Day - Part Two
I'm exhausted! No really I am. Funny thing is that it is not just from getting up earlier than usual and exercising twice a day. My mind is also exhausted, professionally (so much to do & so little time) and personally (but that's a whole other story I'd rather not get into at 12:15 AM). In a nutshell I am one tired chick!!!!
However, is this going to get me down? HELL NO!!!!
I still got up this morning & did the ab roller (15 minutes). I still counted my points all day (woot woot) & I still plan on getting in my cardio before taking a quick shower & drifting off to sleep.
I have to!!!!
You see tomorrow we are celebrating Hispanic Heritage Month at my job & people are bringing in all kinds of goodies from their countries for us to taste. I made Cuban Ham Spread. It should go without saying that there will be minimal to no point counting tomorrow.
So what that means is that I have to work extra hard with my exercise routine so that the damage I inflict on myself tomorrow is not so terrible.
Hopefully if I manage to scrape myself up early enough I can do 1/2 hour of toning exercises tomorrow instead of 15 mins & push myself to do the same with my cardio at night. In other words, double my routine for the day.
However, is this going to get me down? HELL NO!!!!
I still got up this morning & did the ab roller (15 minutes). I still counted my points all day (woot woot) & I still plan on getting in my cardio before taking a quick shower & drifting off to sleep.
I have to!!!!
You see tomorrow we are celebrating Hispanic Heritage Month at my job & people are bringing in all kinds of goodies from their countries for us to taste. I made Cuban Ham Spread. It should go without saying that there will be minimal to no point counting tomorrow.
So what that means is that I have to work extra hard with my exercise routine so that the damage I inflict on myself tomorrow is not so terrible.
Hopefully if I manage to scrape myself up early enough I can do 1/2 hour of toning exercises tomorrow instead of 15 mins & push myself to do the same with my cardio at night. In other words, double my routine for the day.
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Day Ten: Bad Day
Today was just a really bad day for me. Woke up exhausted, but I still did my dumbells (half asleep and in my pajamas but I did them). I did not have the energy to do the kettleball (that thing wiped me out the first time I tried it). I was good all day, thank goodness! I planned my meals from breakfast, through lunch & had a piece of tilapia marinating and waiting for me to get home for dinner. However, somehow my day got complicated.
I had a meeting (seminar) in the morning (they were serving donuts & chewy chocolate chip cookies as treats, I reluctantly walked away) & a training class in the afternoon. Needless to say, my work was majorly backed up. Instead of leaving at 6:30 PM, I left at 7:30 PM mainly because my brain could not function anymore.
I decided to stop at Walmart to pick up a few things, like some more fruits. I have been paying $1 a banana at the cafe downstairs & got 6 for $2 and change at Walmart, which when you work paycheck to paycheck makes a heck of a lot more sense. Needless to say my "few things" turned into a full fledged food shopping trip which involved picking up something for my friend's kid which I then had to deliver. I did not mind doing her this favor since she is always there when I need her but I was starting to get hungry & my only choice at Walmart was McDonalds <cue in dramatic music>.
I looked at my points calculator based on the choices they had to offer (no salads for me, I think I mentioned this before) & although there were things on the menu that were worth less points I went for my usual....chicken nuggets and french fries (just medium & no sauce, I am not completely insane).
You see I checked my points tracker and realized that based on the foods I had eaten all day, if I had my usual I would only go over my daily allowable points by 4. That's not too bad, considering all the exercising I am doing, which add activity points (AP) plus the weekly bonus points (BP) I have not dipped into yet. Granted chicken nuggets and french fries is not what one would consider a healthy meal but it's what I'm accustomed to at McDonald's and it hit the spot so I am not tempted to continue dipping into my AP or BP.
So there you have it, I was "bad" today, however because I was aware of what I had eaten all day it allowed me to make a sensible choice (it was sensible for me, although some may disagree) & I also know what I need to do to make up for it. Cardio! Still have not done my 15 minutes & I need to go make a move on (no pun intended) before it gets any later, it's already quarter to one in the morning! Hula hoops, here I come :)
I had a meeting (seminar) in the morning (they were serving donuts & chewy chocolate chip cookies as treats, I reluctantly walked away) & a training class in the afternoon. Needless to say, my work was majorly backed up. Instead of leaving at 6:30 PM, I left at 7:30 PM mainly because my brain could not function anymore.
I decided to stop at Walmart to pick up a few things, like some more fruits. I have been paying $1 a banana at the cafe downstairs & got 6 for $2 and change at Walmart, which when you work paycheck to paycheck makes a heck of a lot more sense. Needless to say my "few things" turned into a full fledged food shopping trip which involved picking up something for my friend's kid which I then had to deliver. I did not mind doing her this favor since she is always there when I need her but I was starting to get hungry & my only choice at Walmart was McDonalds <cue in dramatic music>.
I looked at my points calculator based on the choices they had to offer (no salads for me, I think I mentioned this before) & although there were things on the menu that were worth less points I went for my usual....chicken nuggets and french fries (just medium & no sauce, I am not completely insane).
You see I checked my points tracker and realized that based on the foods I had eaten all day, if I had my usual I would only go over my daily allowable points by 4. That's not too bad, considering all the exercising I am doing, which add activity points (AP) plus the weekly bonus points (BP) I have not dipped into yet. Granted chicken nuggets and french fries is not what one would consider a healthy meal but it's what I'm accustomed to at McDonald's and it hit the spot so I am not tempted to continue dipping into my AP or BP.
So there you have it, I was "bad" today, however because I was aware of what I had eaten all day it allowed me to make a sensible choice (it was sensible for me, although some may disagree) & I also know what I need to do to make up for it. Cardio! Still have not done my 15 minutes & I need to go make a move on (no pun intended) before it gets any later, it's already quarter to one in the morning! Hula hoops, here I come :)
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Day Nine: Inspirations
Sometimes I wonder what inspires me, what drives or motivates me. You would think the visit I had with my birth mother earlier this year and seeing how she has deteriorated due to her weight. You would think it would be when my gynecologist practically yelled at me after my last annual exam because I allowed myself to undo all of the progress I had made and added a few extra pounds just for good measure. Nope, I did not change my ways or had the passion to do so either. That is until recently. Something just clicked & I finally decided enough was enough, no more excuses. In an odd way, it was seeing someone I work with who used to be probably close to 300 lbs, just melt before my eyes. I sometimes wonder how this person did it and I don't dare ask but I got inspired by their accomplishments, so here I am beginning my journey & oddly enough inspiring others.
I recently heard from a dear old friend, whom through circumstances in life I seldom see or talk to anymore. I sometimes miss the relationship we had & now through this journey we re-connected because unbeknown st to me, she is on a similar journey & I am inspiring her.
There is also a friend I work with, whom I am also inspiring.
They are also inspiring me because now if I allow myself to fail, I not only fail myself but I fail them & I just cannot let that happen. So I keep going, I work through the pain of sore muscles & the cravings for things I should avoid. I drag myself out of bed every morning & keep that promise I made to myself to work on toning my upper body & abs. No matter how tired I am at night, I find the time to raise my heartbeat & do my cardio. As I said before it ranges from 10 to 15 mins, it does not have to take all night but based on the results I have seen thus far...it's doing the trick!
So today, I worked my abs in the morning & danced 4 numbers with Ryan on Wii Just Dance in the evening. Tomorrow, it's kettleball and at night Wii Fit Hula Hoops.
Now it's time for bed, all this working out is wiping me out & I need to rest in order to make good on my promise to myself and to those whom I inspire.
I recently heard from a dear old friend, whom through circumstances in life I seldom see or talk to anymore. I sometimes miss the relationship we had & now through this journey we re-connected because unbeknown st to me, she is on a similar journey & I am inspiring her.
There is also a friend I work with, whom I am also inspiring.
They are also inspiring me because now if I allow myself to fail, I not only fail myself but I fail them & I just cannot let that happen. So I keep going, I work through the pain of sore muscles & the cravings for things I should avoid. I drag myself out of bed every morning & keep that promise I made to myself to work on toning my upper body & abs. No matter how tired I am at night, I find the time to raise my heartbeat & do my cardio. As I said before it ranges from 10 to 15 mins, it does not have to take all night but based on the results I have seen thus far...it's doing the trick!
So today, I worked my abs in the morning & danced 4 numbers with Ryan on Wii Just Dance in the evening. Tomorrow, it's kettleball and at night Wii Fit Hula Hoops.
Now it's time for bed, all this working out is wiping me out & I need to rest in order to make good on my promise to myself and to those whom I inspire.
Monday, September 26, 2011
Day Eight: The First Weigh-In
I was somewhat of a bad girl yesterday. I did not exercise, I did not count my points. I even went out for a late night dinner with a friend and made a conscious decision to treat myself to some otherwise, no-no's. I did not skip out on the Mozzarella sticks, I ate a cheesy pasta dish (it had grilled chicken) & I had BEER! Granted, I only had a few sticks in comparison to what I would normally do and I also separated my main dish into 3 servings. I also chose Light Beer...but one could say I was still "bad".
The way I see it is like this, first of all "bad habits" are hard to change overnight. Second of all, I never was and probably never will be one of those salad eating chicks. Third of all, I am the type of person who likes to have freedom of choice & I need to allow myself to exercise that freedom just as long as I can remember what my ultimate goal is & can get myself back on track. This is how I have succeeded in the past & how I will succeed now. It's not about total deprivation, it's about moderation & it's about awareness. I could have eaten all of the Mozzarella sticks, but I didn't. Ditto for the pasta & don't even get me started about the alcohol (what I really wanted was something creamy & sweet....MEGA CALORIES), but I didn't.
My bad behavior even carried over into this morning. I got home late & when the alarm went off at 6:30 AM for me to get up and get moving on my morning abdominal routine, I chose to ignore it & hit snooze several dozen times before I actually emerged from my bed. Needless to say, all I had time for was a quick shower before getting Ryan and me off on our day.
Once I got to work, I settled back to "good" behavior. I had a yogurt parfait and a banana for breakfast & a Lean Pocket for lunch. Snacking which usually involved Fritos or something like it, was replaced by another banana & a Special K bar. At dinner time, I chose to have another 3rd of the pasta from Sunday night (I don't want it to go to waste and I really did not have the time to make an elaborate meal, since Monday nights are my Zumba nights). I knew that no matter how many calories were in that pasta, I would probably sweat them out at Zumba tonight, so I was not overly concerned.
Good or bad? Really doesn't matter because whatever I am doing, it's WORKING....at my morning weigh in I discovered a weight lost of 4.4 lbs this week, GOOOOOO ME!!!!!
The way I see it is like this, first of all "bad habits" are hard to change overnight. Second of all, I never was and probably never will be one of those salad eating chicks. Third of all, I am the type of person who likes to have freedom of choice & I need to allow myself to exercise that freedom just as long as I can remember what my ultimate goal is & can get myself back on track. This is how I have succeeded in the past & how I will succeed now. It's not about total deprivation, it's about moderation & it's about awareness. I could have eaten all of the Mozzarella sticks, but I didn't. Ditto for the pasta & don't even get me started about the alcohol (what I really wanted was something creamy & sweet....MEGA CALORIES), but I didn't.
My bad behavior even carried over into this morning. I got home late & when the alarm went off at 6:30 AM for me to get up and get moving on my morning abdominal routine, I chose to ignore it & hit snooze several dozen times before I actually emerged from my bed. Needless to say, all I had time for was a quick shower before getting Ryan and me off on our day.
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| Breakfast used to be a bagel or biali, much better huh? |
Good or bad? Really doesn't matter because whatever I am doing, it's WORKING....at my morning weigh in I discovered a weight lost of 4.4 lbs this week, GOOOOOO ME!!!!!
Sunday, September 25, 2011
Days Five, Six & Seven: The First Weekend
Wow! Have I been busy. On Friday I decided it was time to switch my closet from Spring/Summer to Fall/Winter. I worked out in the morning (dumbells), counted points all day & decided the closet job was enough of a work-out that I skipped on my nightly cardio routine.
Saturday - It's amazing how much work was still to do & my apt honestly looked like a department store blew up inside of it. I got up early to continue what I started the night before, dropped off my kid at a birthday party & then came back to finish what I started the night before. I took an afternoon break to go to the dentist (I need a root canal, oh happy joy) and later spent some quality time with my friend Yvette. I was so proud of myself, I behaved! Made sensible food choices & even had the will power to say NO to a piece of birthday cake when I picked my son up from the birthday party. When Ryan & I got home we decorated the apartment for Halloween & went to bed. No traditional exercising for me today but I did finish cleaning up the house & broke out in a sweat moving the bins in and out of my closet. That counts, doesn't it?
Sunday - totally lazy day. I had already decided that as long as I behaved during the week I would not exercise on Sundays. I figured if the All Mighty could rest on the 7th day, so could I. Basically, I just sat around watching football...Giants won! Woot woot woot! Yankees won! Another woot woot woot! I must admit the Giants and Yankees winning are not the only reasons I am doing a happy dance right now, I am mainly doing the happy dance because I am wearing a pair of capris that were a little snug just a few weeks ago and they are not so snug right now...WOOT WOOT WOOT for me!
Tomorrow is my weigh in day, wish me luck!
Saturday - It's amazing how much work was still to do & my apt honestly looked like a department store blew up inside of it. I got up early to continue what I started the night before, dropped off my kid at a birthday party & then came back to finish what I started the night before. I took an afternoon break to go to the dentist (I need a root canal, oh happy joy) and later spent some quality time with my friend Yvette. I was so proud of myself, I behaved! Made sensible food choices & even had the will power to say NO to a piece of birthday cake when I picked my son up from the birthday party. When Ryan & I got home we decorated the apartment for Halloween & went to bed. No traditional exercising for me today but I did finish cleaning up the house & broke out in a sweat moving the bins in and out of my closet. That counts, doesn't it?
Sunday - totally lazy day. I had already decided that as long as I behaved during the week I would not exercise on Sundays. I figured if the All Mighty could rest on the 7th day, so could I. Basically, I just sat around watching football...Giants won! Woot woot woot! Yankees won! Another woot woot woot! I must admit the Giants and Yankees winning are not the only reasons I am doing a happy dance right now, I am mainly doing the happy dance because I am wearing a pair of capris that were a little snug just a few weeks ago and they are not so snug right now...WOOT WOOT WOOT for me!
Tomorrow is my weigh in day, wish me luck!
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Day Four: This Hurts!
Holy crap! I am hurting big time. Everything seems to hurt, my thighs, my arms, my stomach....places I did not think could hurt (like the back on my ankles, wth!). I am not going to let this get me down & kill my momentum. I still got up this morning & did the ab roller. As usual my night got a little chaotic, after work I ran around like a chicken without a head but as soon as I got home (while my food was cooking) I took off my work clothes, threw on my smelly work-out clothes (less laundry to do) put on my TV, turned on the Wii and did my aerobics. Go me!
However, I am in pain & just the thought of getting off this chair is sending a chill down my spine. Honestly, right about now I wish the dog could walk herself because just thinking of going up & down a flight of stairs with an energetic dog is not something I am looking forward to. In fact, I wish I did not have to take a shower & I could just roll myself right into my bed. But these are things I need to do, the dog needs to be walked, the garbage needs to be taken out & I am really beginning to stink so I also need to take a quick shower before hitting my nice clean sheets.
However, I am in pain & just the thought of getting off this chair is sending a chill down my spine. Honestly, right about now I wish the dog could walk herself because just thinking of going up & down a flight of stairs with an energetic dog is not something I am looking forward to. In fact, I wish I did not have to take a shower & I could just roll myself right into my bed. But these are things I need to do, the dog needs to be walked, the garbage needs to be taken out & I am really beginning to stink so I also need to take a quick shower before hitting my nice clean sheets.
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Day Three: Ten To Fifteen
These days that's how long my usual workouts take, ten to fifteen minutes. Heck, I just started back up with an exercise routine & I want to build up to something, not push myself beyond what I can physically do. So that's what I am doing, in addition to counting my "points"...Weight Watchers (its a pain in the ass but the system works, I should know I lost 50 lbs counting "points" not so long ago). So far, I haven't really craved anything I know I shouldn't eat & yes I am well aware that it is only day three.
Today, started actually at about seven instead of six (I went to bed kinda late last night). I did some dumbbell curls and worked my biceps, triceps & shoulders. At night I attempted to do 15 minutes on the elliptical machine but gave up at ten. I was a little disappointed at first but then I thought, hey that's 10 more minutes than I did yesterday when the machine was still posing as an odd looking clothing rack.
Slow and steady, slow and steady will win....I just have to keep on going until I win!
Today, started actually at about seven instead of six (I went to bed kinda late last night). I did some dumbbell curls and worked my biceps, triceps & shoulders. At night I attempted to do 15 minutes on the elliptical machine but gave up at ten. I was a little disappointed at first but then I thought, hey that's 10 more minutes than I did yesterday when the machine was still posing as an odd looking clothing rack.
Slow and steady, slow and steady will win....I just have to keep on going until I win!
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Day Two: Chaos
I have to say I am very proud of myself today. I got up at 6:00AM & did some Core Exercises. Geesh, right about now I feel as if I slapped myself several hundred times across the stomach but I must admit it feels kinda good...no pain no gain.
Work was nuts, too much to do & too little time. In fact I have a pile of crap waiting for me in the morning.
After work, that's when my life became total chaos! The kid came home with a note from school, band practice starts tomorrow & he still did not have a saxophone...I still have trouble believing that he picked the saxophone. Anyhow, after work I met up with him and his dad at Sam Ash & then proceeded to his dad's so assemble the damn thing. I did not get home until after 8PM. Shit! Make dinner, feed dog, feed kid, feed myself, take out the recycling, clean up kitchen, fold laundry (screw that, I'll do it tomorrow), look over homework, get kid in the bath & ready for bed...needless to say it's midnight & I have not gotten around to do my cardio.
Thinking about not doing it right about now but seriously this kind of mentality is what got me into the shape I am in right now. Hell no, I refuse to give into this! I may be tired but I made a promise to myself & even if I only exercise for 15 minutes, I am doing it! So off I go....
Work was nuts, too much to do & too little time. In fact I have a pile of crap waiting for me in the morning.
After work, that's when my life became total chaos! The kid came home with a note from school, band practice starts tomorrow & he still did not have a saxophone...I still have trouble believing that he picked the saxophone. Anyhow, after work I met up with him and his dad at Sam Ash & then proceeded to his dad's so assemble the damn thing. I did not get home until after 8PM. Shit! Make dinner, feed dog, feed kid, feed myself, take out the recycling, clean up kitchen, fold laundry (screw that, I'll do it tomorrow), look over homework, get kid in the bath & ready for bed...needless to say it's midnight & I have not gotten around to do my cardio.
Thinking about not doing it right about now but seriously this kind of mentality is what got me into the shape I am in right now. Hell no, I refuse to give into this! I may be tired but I made a promise to myself & even if I only exercise for 15 minutes, I am doing it! So off I go....
Monday, September 19, 2011
Day One: Beginnings
I've decided to journal my hopeful transformation into my former self. I've tried this before & succeeded for the most part only to be knocked down and undo all of my hard work. Hopefully, this time will be different. Hopefully this time I will succeed once and for all. No more excuses! It's time I finally gained control and like the saying goes..."there is no time like the present".
My first day started at about 6:30 AM. I dragged myself out of bed, did some kettleball exercises, showered & got ready for work.
I proceeded to plan out my meals for the day (need to make more time for this going forward, since it almost made me late for work, but this is crucial to my success). I then packed up my things & headed off to work.
Work was work, nothing too exciting but lots to do. In other words, a typical Monday. I was beginning to feel a little under the weather & was a little sluggish and achy...did not stop me from going to Zumba though (after all I am on a mission).
After work that's when the fun began...picked up my son, rushed home, made dinner (turkey burgers sans the bread) & went to Zumba. I have no idea what was into the instructor today but I swear she was trying to kill me, she did not succeed. However, I have a sneaky feeling I may need a crane tomorrow morning to get my fat ass out of bed. I may possibly need a wheelchair to get around because I just know I am going to feel this tomorrow & simply walking may just be a challenge.
After Zumba, did the usual Mom things & am now sitting down to watch the Giants destroy the Rams (what a game, so far!).
Going to take a shower now (you have no idea how disgusting I feel right now & I am not taking this sweaty, dirty body to bed) & then getting in my jammies to finish watching the 4th quarter (I paused the game, so that I wouldn't miss a thing).
So to recap, I did strength training this morning, ate healthy all day and did high intensity aerobics at night. Not to shabby for the first day, don't you think?
Tomorrow I'll be starting off my day with abs (I hope!) & then doing some Wii Just Dance to keep up with the aerobics.
Wish me luck ~ J
My first day started at about 6:30 AM. I dragged myself out of bed, did some kettleball exercises, showered & got ready for work.
I proceeded to plan out my meals for the day (need to make more time for this going forward, since it almost made me late for work, but this is crucial to my success). I then packed up my things & headed off to work.
Work was work, nothing too exciting but lots to do. In other words, a typical Monday. I was beginning to feel a little under the weather & was a little sluggish and achy...did not stop me from going to Zumba though (after all I am on a mission).
After work that's when the fun began...picked up my son, rushed home, made dinner (turkey burgers sans the bread) & went to Zumba. I have no idea what was into the instructor today but I swear she was trying to kill me, she did not succeed. However, I have a sneaky feeling I may need a crane tomorrow morning to get my fat ass out of bed. I may possibly need a wheelchair to get around because I just know I am going to feel this tomorrow & simply walking may just be a challenge.
After Zumba, did the usual Mom things & am now sitting down to watch the Giants destroy the Rams (what a game, so far!).
Going to take a shower now (you have no idea how disgusting I feel right now & I am not taking this sweaty, dirty body to bed) & then getting in my jammies to finish watching the 4th quarter (I paused the game, so that I wouldn't miss a thing).
So to recap, I did strength training this morning, ate healthy all day and did high intensity aerobics at night. Not to shabby for the first day, don't you think?
Tomorrow I'll be starting off my day with abs (I hope!) & then doing some Wii Just Dance to keep up with the aerobics.
Wish me luck ~ J
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