Hello again! These last couple of weeks have been absolutely insane...at work....at home...in general.
Thankfully, Ryan's last game will be on Friday so no more Fall Baseball. As much as he enjoys to play the sport & I like watching him play....every now and again I get exhausted from being Mommy Chauffeur.
What's really killing my mojo and draining me of what little energy I have left is work. I am not saying I hate my job or the company I work for or anything of the sort. It's just the industry I am in. It's finance, it's dealing with people's money, with their nest egg, with their fears...it's exhausting! Day in and day out I am talking people off ledges, comforting their fears while I see my own 401K tank & the only people who call me on a daily basis are creditors. It's stressful. Listen the economy sucks, you don't need me to tell you that. Frankly, I am not thrilled over this whole Occupy Wall Street movement because since it began my workload has doubled (not complaining, I am just human and could do only so much). I come home from work & all I want to do is collapse on the couch & my brain is absolute mush. Just the other day I stopped at my local supermarket after working a 10 1/2 hour day so that I could pick up a few things for dinner. I was so tired I left my phone there and wasn't until I got home that realized it so I had to go back out to retrieve it. The very next day I worked a 10 hour day and realized when I got to my car that I had left my keys on my desk so I had to go all the way back to get them. I actually never ate dinner on either of these days because I was too tired and just went to bed. Funny thing is, these are days I did not have Ryan, on those days I can't work late but my evenings are just as exhausting & most nights the kid eats and so does the dog...I only have the energy to nibble on something.
The long and the short of all this is...I have not had the energy to write about my daily dieting rituals but that does not mean I am not still giving it an effort. In all honesty, I have not worked out in about two weeks (I hurt my leg and then when it started to heal went on two very long walks, which made me sore for days). I am watching what I eat, and trying to make sensible choices (I keep forgetting to track my points sometimes). The whole eat breakfast like a king and have dinner like a pauper theory seems to be working though. I have a big breakfast and it seems to sustain me through the day and into the evening, In summary since I started my journey I lost 10 pounds. Perhaps it could have been more if I stayed more consistent, but hey the pounds did not add up overnight and they won't come off overnight either....baby steps! But I just have to keep on going.....
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Sunday, October 30, 2011
Monday, October 17, 2011
Days Twenty-Five through Twenty-Nine: Balls and Other Stuff
Thursday - I attended the North Bergen Mayor's Ball. What a party! There was a bountiful buffet complete with the biggest shrimp I had ever seen in my life, food up the whazoo, drinks a plenty and desserts to die for. Was I good? <Insert loud laughter> Are you kidding me? Of course, I was not good...but I know if I wasn't on this little kick I am on I could have been a lot worse.
Friday - It took me over an hour to get home from work. These things rattle me & hence stress me out...enough said.
Saturday - I had to Proctor in the morning so I was up and about at a ridiculously early hour (6AM). Afterwards I went to the Endodontist & started a root canal. It's going to cost me $925 & the way they work is I pay them and then they bill my Insurance Company (memories of Celebrity all over again). Once they receive the payment from the Insurance Company I will get reimbursed for the amount the Insurance Company paid. Really? $925 right before Christmas, when I am already behind on the majority of my bills...I need this like a hole in the head. Hence more stress! BTW - Stress = Make Poor Food Choices (at least I am aware of this and try to not go too overboard).
Sunday - My MBF (male best friend) came over to flip Ryan's mattress. He has been complaining about his mattress being uncomfortable for months and has been sleeping in my bed but since I am BROKE (see above) I decided it would be best to try to buy myself some time by flipping the thing over and buying Memory Foam to line it with. This is not a job that I can do myself since Ryan has a bunk bed, so my MBF came to the rescue & we got the job done (BTW - Ryan is in his room & LOVES his "new" mattress). Score!
Monday - I woke up feeling as though a Mack Truck had run me over. Never made it to work, so those of you who know me know this is serious. I spent most of the day sleeping or in the bathroom. I did manage to keep my promise to Ryan & went to Party City to get him his Halloween Costume and then came home & let him carve his pumpkin. He did the majority of the work himself, while I lay on the couch praying the pain in my gut would just go away.
In summary, this last week was one of the most chaotic ones I have had in quite sometime. I am a little disappointed in myself because I barely made time to exercise and made some pretty awful food choices. Bad Judy!!!!
However, right now I just can't wait to recoup from the stomach bug that is ailing me at the moment so that I can get back to business, because enough is enough!
Friday - It took me over an hour to get home from work. These things rattle me & hence stress me out...enough said.
Saturday - I had to Proctor in the morning so I was up and about at a ridiculously early hour (6AM). Afterwards I went to the Endodontist & started a root canal. It's going to cost me $925 & the way they work is I pay them and then they bill my Insurance Company (memories of Celebrity all over again). Once they receive the payment from the Insurance Company I will get reimbursed for the amount the Insurance Company paid. Really? $925 right before Christmas, when I am already behind on the majority of my bills...I need this like a hole in the head. Hence more stress! BTW - Stress = Make Poor Food Choices (at least I am aware of this and try to not go too overboard).
Sunday - My MBF (male best friend) came over to flip Ryan's mattress. He has been complaining about his mattress being uncomfortable for months and has been sleeping in my bed but since I am BROKE (see above) I decided it would be best to try to buy myself some time by flipping the thing over and buying Memory Foam to line it with. This is not a job that I can do myself since Ryan has a bunk bed, so my MBF came to the rescue & we got the job done (BTW - Ryan is in his room & LOVES his "new" mattress). Score!
Monday - I woke up feeling as though a Mack Truck had run me over. Never made it to work, so those of you who know me know this is serious. I spent most of the day sleeping or in the bathroom. I did manage to keep my promise to Ryan & went to Party City to get him his Halloween Costume and then came home & let him carve his pumpkin. He did the majority of the work himself, while I lay on the couch praying the pain in my gut would just go away.
In summary, this last week was one of the most chaotic ones I have had in quite sometime. I am a little disappointed in myself because I barely made time to exercise and made some pretty awful food choices. Bad Judy!!!!
However, right now I just can't wait to recoup from the stomach bug that is ailing me at the moment so that I can get back to business, because enough is enough!
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Day Twenty-Four: Happy Hump Day
So I'm a day late and a dollar short. What else is new. I'm still not completely over the hump but putting all things into consideration I was not as bad as I could have been. So I had a bagel for breakfast and munched on some garlic breadsticks all day. I also had a chocolate bar & a Snackwells bar (only healthy thing I ate all day). For dinner I had Wendy's chili and a baked potato.
I was not kidding when I said that when my "friend" is in for a visit, not only does she completely wipe me out as of late (I was in bed by 10:30....which is unheard of for me) but I crave the strangest things. Trust me I know I shouldn't eat this way....I'm not stupid but when my "friend" is in town, I cave....for the sake of my own sanity. Oh yeah & work has been CRAZY lately, not that I am complaining. I am glad to have a job & I like what I do these days but all week I have been leaving there feeling like mush, too much to do and not enough time to do it.
Still not exercising, I feel as though I am not resting at night & wake up exhausted. Last night to add insult to my already aching leg (I think I may need to see a doctor since my left leg is still feeling sore after almost a WEEK) I got a Charly Horse in the middle of the night, which is still throbbing and making my leg feel worse.
In summary I guess you can say I at least made a "decent" choice at Wendy's for dinner. That's progress. I just have to keep reminding myself....baby steps, baby steps.......
I was not kidding when I said that when my "friend" is in for a visit, not only does she completely wipe me out as of late (I was in bed by 10:30....which is unheard of for me) but I crave the strangest things. Trust me I know I shouldn't eat this way....I'm not stupid but when my "friend" is in town, I cave....for the sake of my own sanity. Oh yeah & work has been CRAZY lately, not that I am complaining. I am glad to have a job & I like what I do these days but all week I have been leaving there feeling like mush, too much to do and not enough time to do it.
Still not exercising, I feel as though I am not resting at night & wake up exhausted. Last night to add insult to my already aching leg (I think I may need to see a doctor since my left leg is still feeling sore after almost a WEEK) I got a Charly Horse in the middle of the night, which is still throbbing and making my leg feel worse.
In summary I guess you can say I at least made a "decent" choice at Wendy's for dinner. That's progress. I just have to keep reminding myself....baby steps, baby steps.......
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Day Twenty-Three: Crow
Maybe if I was forced to eat crow unless I stick to my diet, this would work! Well I am kinda eating crow right about now. I honestly don't know what's wrong with me? The day starts off good (not perfect, Ryan asked for spaghetti o's for lunch & a little bit did not fit in the Thermos....you know the rest). From there I get frazzled (my computer at work knocked me out of the server, so my afternoon was shot!) and I lose my motivation. WTF? I did have lots and lots of fruit today, hoping it would quench the bottomless pit....it only made me go to the bathroom 20 thousand times! So in a way, I guess there is a method to my madness.
As an aside, what is it with electronics conspiring against me lately...I know you are all in cahoots...KNOCK IT OFF!!!
I am also not feeling 100% & my exercise room has been taken over by a drying rack (Ryan has a game tomorrow & I had to wash his uniform but was afraid to leave the dryer on all night).
So in summary, I already know this is going to be a challenging week. Too much to do but I am determined that even on not so perfect days I will do my best to at least make a conscious effort at keeping to the plan.
Slow and steady, right? Hey on a good note I am beginning to see things are getting looser on me. Too bad it's my watch, lol. Geesh, you know not for nothing but my wrists were not in such a dire need to get trim. Perhaps we can work on my big fat ASS, now that's more like it!
As an aside, what is it with electronics conspiring against me lately...I know you are all in cahoots...KNOCK IT OFF!!!
I am also not feeling 100% & my exercise room has been taken over by a drying rack (Ryan has a game tomorrow & I had to wash his uniform but was afraid to leave the dryer on all night).
So in summary, I already know this is going to be a challenging week. Too much to do but I am determined that even on not so perfect days I will do my best to at least make a conscious effort at keeping to the plan.
Slow and steady, right? Hey on a good note I am beginning to see things are getting looser on me. Too bad it's my watch, lol. Geesh, you know not for nothing but my wrists were not in such a dire need to get trim. Perhaps we can work on my big fat ASS, now that's more like it!
Monday, October 10, 2011
Days Fifteen through Twenty-Two: 3rd Weekend Recap
You must be wondering where I have been? If I gave up on this whole transformation thing. The answer is No but I did have a terrible week.
My internet froze up, completely! To the point I had to buy some software called "System Mechanic" and when all else failed had to resort to reach out to the devil...my ex-husband (who happens to be a computer expert) for help. Needless to say I could not post anything since my only internet resources were from work (out of the question, too much to do) and my phone (are you kidding me?).
To add insult to injury (no pun intended) I seem to have pulled something in my leg so I could not do my weekly Zumba class and the slightest bit of movement (eg, walking) was painful so I basically could not do any cardio at all. I did work on my strength building and toning but I have to be honest with you, gave up on that on Thursday.
One could say I lost my mojo! Hey I am being honest!!!! I felt like the mole in whack a mole, every time I tried to pop my head out of the hole in the ground, something or someone was waiting on the other side with a huge mallet to knock me back down! It was extremely frustrating and disheartening to say the least. Oh and the icing to the cake is I am PMSing, so I am EXTRA sensitive to EVERYTHING!!!!
So considering my mood and in the sake for humanity (especially those I interact with on a daily basis) I decided to give myself a break. A break from the exercise and the point counting. I enjoyed a three day free for all (in moderation, since for some reason although I knew I was not doing what I should be doing somewhere my sub-conscious was saying...ah ah ah BAD JUDY!)
Sunday was the worst day! I went pumpkin picking with my son Ryan and our friends Jamie and Jake. I knew enough to have only ONE apple cider donut, but could not pass on the Fried Oreos (those things are EVIL) and my son insisted on Funnel Cake which of course I finished because I hate seeing food (even food that is bad for me) go to waste. For the record, it's impossible to stay on track when your kids are around. Well maybe not impossible but it sure seems like it, since I tend to act like a freakin' garbage disposal around him...finishing off what he leaves behind. That is one habit I am going to need to learn to nip in the butt if I ever plan on reaching my goal.
Overall, bad week (it happens) but not too much damage was done. I only gained 1.6 pounds so I am still ahead of the game. This week I have to focus and not let my monthly visitor hinder my progress by turning me into an eating machine. I just have to remind myself, it is not going to happen overnight....baby steps all the way and it's ok to screw up (I'M HUMAN). I just have to learn to get back on the wagon when I fall off and most importantly I need to be honest with myself, if this is EVER going to work!
My internet froze up, completely! To the point I had to buy some software called "System Mechanic" and when all else failed had to resort to reach out to the devil...my ex-husband (who happens to be a computer expert) for help. Needless to say I could not post anything since my only internet resources were from work (out of the question, too much to do) and my phone (are you kidding me?).
To add insult to injury (no pun intended) I seem to have pulled something in my leg so I could not do my weekly Zumba class and the slightest bit of movement (eg, walking) was painful so I basically could not do any cardio at all. I did work on my strength building and toning but I have to be honest with you, gave up on that on Thursday.
One could say I lost my mojo! Hey I am being honest!!!! I felt like the mole in whack a mole, every time I tried to pop my head out of the hole in the ground, something or someone was waiting on the other side with a huge mallet to knock me back down! It was extremely frustrating and disheartening to say the least. Oh and the icing to the cake is I am PMSing, so I am EXTRA sensitive to EVERYTHING!!!!
So considering my mood and in the sake for humanity (especially those I interact with on a daily basis) I decided to give myself a break. A break from the exercise and the point counting. I enjoyed a three day free for all (in moderation, since for some reason although I knew I was not doing what I should be doing somewhere my sub-conscious was saying...ah ah ah BAD JUDY!)
Sunday was the worst day! I went pumpkin picking with my son Ryan and our friends Jamie and Jake. I knew enough to have only ONE apple cider donut, but could not pass on the Fried Oreos (those things are EVIL) and my son insisted on Funnel Cake which of course I finished because I hate seeing food (even food that is bad for me) go to waste. For the record, it's impossible to stay on track when your kids are around. Well maybe not impossible but it sure seems like it, since I tend to act like a freakin' garbage disposal around him...finishing off what he leaves behind. That is one habit I am going to need to learn to nip in the butt if I ever plan on reaching my goal.
Overall, bad week (it happens) but not too much damage was done. I only gained 1.6 pounds so I am still ahead of the game. This week I have to focus and not let my monthly visitor hinder my progress by turning me into an eating machine. I just have to remind myself, it is not going to happen overnight....baby steps all the way and it's ok to screw up (I'M HUMAN). I just have to learn to get back on the wagon when I fall off and most importantly I need to be honest with myself, if this is EVER going to work!
Monday, October 3, 2011
Days Thirteen & Fourteen: 2nd Weekend Recap
In theory I was "good" this weekend. I exercised (twice a day) and I ate sensibly (I did not count points for three days). It just so happens that weekends are rough! Who knew?
I can honestly say I don't remember what I ate on Saturday but I know it wasn't much (I did not have the time). In the middle of my day I got a call from my kid asking me to pick him up in Queens....QUEENS? You see he was with his dad this weekend (or supposed to be) but since my ex & his wife had plans on Friday, instead of calling me to watch my son they drove him out to Queens to his step-mother's sister's house. My son was upset because he thought he was going to miss his 1st baseball practice (which happened to get cancelled anyhow). I called my ex & he said that he was stuck in the City and that his wife was out with some Buyers and that most likely they would not be able to pick up Ryan until Sunday morning. Having dealt with this nonsense NUMEROUS times, I decided to pick my kid up & bring him home. I also needed to run out and get him a Red shirt for the game since the Uniforms are not in yet (something else Dad was supposed to take care of).
I was not overly concerned about the practice I was more worried about missing the game on Sunday. Thank God I went with my gut since the step-mom (Diane) left early in the morning (took the only car they have) to go to a Trade Show & it was I who ended up taking Ryan to his game, because she did not get back in time. Against my better judgement I picked up his dad, so that he could go to the game (something that I am sure if the shoe was on the other foot he would not do for me). Now that I am recollecting my day I think I had a bagel thin for breakfast and the afternoon disruption took care of my mid-day appetite. I did get hungry but since my choices were Fast Food or an unhealthy snack of some sort (chocolate bar, chips etc)...lesson learned buy Healthy Snacks that I can carry around with me when the rug gets pulled out from under me! I made brown rice and grilled chicken with peppers & onions for dinner, so that ended my day on a high note....oh yeah & the YANKEES won!
On Sunday, I made breakfast (one scrambled egg & turkey sausage). I went to Ryan's game...they won! I then went home and got engrossed in laundry and my weekly chores (scrubbing down the bathroom, vacuum & general upkeep of my apt). I also took some time off to watch some Football....Giants won, Yankees didn't. For lunch I had some leftover chicken & rice from the night before and for some odd reason was not hungry at dinnertime, so I had a light snack. I did get my daily exercises in!
Overall, not too shabby for my 2nd week. As per the scale this morning I am down another 2.8 lbs. Total since the inception of my transformation....7.2 lbs!!!!! AWESOME!!!!! YAY ME!!!!
I can honestly say I don't remember what I ate on Saturday but I know it wasn't much (I did not have the time). In the middle of my day I got a call from my kid asking me to pick him up in Queens....QUEENS? You see he was with his dad this weekend (or supposed to be) but since my ex & his wife had plans on Friday, instead of calling me to watch my son they drove him out to Queens to his step-mother's sister's house. My son was upset because he thought he was going to miss his 1st baseball practice (which happened to get cancelled anyhow). I called my ex & he said that he was stuck in the City and that his wife was out with some Buyers and that most likely they would not be able to pick up Ryan until Sunday morning. Having dealt with this nonsense NUMEROUS times, I decided to pick my kid up & bring him home. I also needed to run out and get him a Red shirt for the game since the Uniforms are not in yet (something else Dad was supposed to take care of).
I was not overly concerned about the practice I was more worried about missing the game on Sunday. Thank God I went with my gut since the step-mom (Diane) left early in the morning (took the only car they have) to go to a Trade Show & it was I who ended up taking Ryan to his game, because she did not get back in time. Against my better judgement I picked up his dad, so that he could go to the game (something that I am sure if the shoe was on the other foot he would not do for me). Now that I am recollecting my day I think I had a bagel thin for breakfast and the afternoon disruption took care of my mid-day appetite. I did get hungry but since my choices were Fast Food or an unhealthy snack of some sort (chocolate bar, chips etc)...lesson learned buy Healthy Snacks that I can carry around with me when the rug gets pulled out from under me! I made brown rice and grilled chicken with peppers & onions for dinner, so that ended my day on a high note....oh yeah & the YANKEES won!
On Sunday, I made breakfast (one scrambled egg & turkey sausage). I went to Ryan's game...they won! I then went home and got engrossed in laundry and my weekly chores (scrubbing down the bathroom, vacuum & general upkeep of my apt). I also took some time off to watch some Football....Giants won, Yankees didn't. For lunch I had some leftover chicken & rice from the night before and for some odd reason was not hungry at dinnertime, so I had a light snack. I did get my daily exercises in!
Overall, not too shabby for my 2nd week. As per the scale this morning I am down another 2.8 lbs. Total since the inception of my transformation....7.2 lbs!!!!! AWESOME!!!!! YAY ME!!!!
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